Journaling Out Of Narcissism (ePub)

This is my journal based on my spiritual journey going inwards then coming out. This is not the truth just my truth, because truth is your own. I write about letting go so that we can become who we are supposed to be. We all have the opportunity to become our greatest self. There is a hidden power within all of us, potential energy waiting to be unlocked.

My past experiences created so many obstacles and challenges. I was bullied used and abused, I also hurt others too. I thought that I could bury my hurt feelings deep inside while I continued to live my life. I used to be full of regret, guilt, envy, shame, grief, and resentments.

In 2011 I was somehow pulled into chakras, yoga and tai chi. I had no idea where spirit was moving me. I have come to realize that I spent most of my life sleeping, this was an eerie feeling. I thought I knew who I was; I saw how my life was just a lie.

I needed to challenge my perception of myself and the world outside.

I found myself experiencing higher consciousness as I journeyed deeper internally, my external was all an illusion, and that the only thing that is true is what's within. I continued my quest because I wanted to experience spiritual enlightenment.

Working on healing my chakras, I began to see how my pain and ignorance was the cause of my attractions and my life's outcome. I began to see how my low self-esteem, low confidence, and selfishness were ruling my behavior. I felt that I knew it all and that I was special.

I thought that everyone else was bad, and blamed instead of looking at my reflection for truth. I saw how the enemy was I, by judging and criticizing myself to appear or feel perfect. This caused much chaotic drama with others.

Can a narcissistic person find unconditional love, selflessness, and inner peace? I believe that everyone has a potential to evolve beyond their humanity, regardless of their mentality.